how comforted i am by the smell of cigar smoke.
makes me think of floyd.
i love him to the end of the world, like i swear i would trust him with my life.
school tomorrow.
spent the day at the beach with a friends fam for her bro's bday
xx
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
what the FUCK
is wrong with guys???? Why do i continually find myself in situations where the guy likes me enough to hook up with me but not enough to actually date me? it's so messed up and it just ends up in me getting attached and hoping blindly that things might work and they never fucking do. its like i know its going to happen but i am dumb or naive enough to just hope that maybe, maybe this time things might work.ugh. i dont *think* im ugly or socially embaressing or annoying, so why do guys never wanna publicly date me? it's insulting and ive fucking had enough. and now i get to go back to school and see him hitting on the whorey tacky plastic spoilt year 11 bitches (yes, i know, i dated a yr 13 when i was year 11, but im not a bimbo like them). as if school wasn't bad enough. and im going to miss hanging out with floyd/lily/evan/channing (he gets home in like a week!!!!) like i have so much this summer.
on a brighter note, tallulah got here the other day and we hung out yesterday and it was fab
I HATE BOYS
on a brighter note, tallulah got here the other day and we hung out yesterday and it was fab
I HATE BOYS
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
why do i do this to myself
Why do i always find guys who are not right for me? I'm still hurt from the whole Kyle disaster, and now i've started thinking about Evan again, and another guy too. I don't need to have another relationship where the guy is still in love with his ex, or just wanting me for my body.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Monday, January 28, 2008
Random survey
EIGHT Lasts.
1. Last cigarette: never
2. Last beverage: sprite zero
3. Last phone call: from mum, making sure i could get a lift home
4. Last text message: Robyn: 'cool, cos i think we have the same shifts"
5. Last CD played: modest mouse "building something out of nothing"
6. Last bubble bath: a month or so ago
7. Last time you cried: a couple of weeks ago? wow
8. Last meal: haha, we had pizza. im soooo healthy
List FOUR people you can tell pretty much anything to:
Claire
Alistair
Seth
Matt
EIGHT Have You Evers
1. Have you ever dated someone twice? yes. bad idea
2. Have you ever been cheated on? yes :(
4. Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it? yes
5. Have you ever fallen in love? Yes.
6. Have you ever lost someone? my grandad, a few other relatives but no one i was very close to
7. Have you ever been depressed? Yes
8. Have you ever been drunk and thrown up? unfortunately
Name SIX things you did in the past three days
1. Slept
2. danced
3. talked
4. sang
5. baked
6.ate
List TWO things you want to do before you die
1. go on an adventure
2. meet a guy who says he loves me and means it
SO FAR IN 08…
Been to school - nope!!!
Made a new friend- yeah
Fallen out of love - nope, i wasn't in love to start with
Done something you swore never to do - no
Laughed until you cried - often
Met someone who changed your life - not yet
Gotten close to someone - yes
Found out who your true friends were - to a degree
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF……
1. Bush? I don't really have much of an opinion, i don't know enough to decide
2. Gay Marriage? Go for it!
3. Who is the best hugger that you know? Patwick
4. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes
5. Is there something you want to tell someone? yes
6. What brand of shirt are you wearing? it's a Death Cab for Cutie one
7. Do you want to kiss anyone on your top friends on your favourite social networking site? yes
8. How many kids do you want to have? 2. how many do i want to give birth to? zero
9. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? In general
10. Do you wanna change your name? No i like it
11. What did you do for your last birthday? I had a big party
12. What time did you wake up today? 8ish, it was too hot to sleep
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? talking on msn
14. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: meet tallulah
15. Last time you saw your dad? yesterday
16. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? my lack of self confidence
17. Which hand do you like better? my right one is a lot more useful
18. What are you listening to right now? east 1999 - bone thug-n-harmony
19. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? Yes
20. Where is your virginity? who knows
21. Least favorite month? october
22. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? a jacket from robyn
23. Who’s getting on your nerves right now? No one really
24. Most visited webpage? IBS
25. Would you help your best friend fight if he/she is losing?definitely
26. What’s the worst day of your life? i dont even wanna think about it
27. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? no :(
28. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? when i get in a ranty mood, yes
1. Last cigarette: never
2. Last beverage: sprite zero
3. Last phone call: from mum, making sure i could get a lift home
4. Last text message: Robyn: 'cool, cos i think we have the same shifts"
5. Last CD played: modest mouse "building something out of nothing"
6. Last bubble bath: a month or so ago
7. Last time you cried: a couple of weeks ago? wow
8. Last meal: haha, we had pizza. im soooo healthy
List FOUR people you can tell pretty much anything to:
Claire
Alistair
Seth
Matt
EIGHT Have You Evers
1. Have you ever dated someone twice? yes. bad idea
2. Have you ever been cheated on? yes :(
4. Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it? yes
5. Have you ever fallen in love? Yes.
6. Have you ever lost someone? my grandad, a few other relatives but no one i was very close to
7. Have you ever been depressed? Yes
8. Have you ever been drunk and thrown up? unfortunately
Name SIX things you did in the past three days
1. Slept
2. danced
3. talked
4. sang
5. baked
6.ate
List TWO things you want to do before you die
1. go on an adventure
2. meet a guy who says he loves me and means it
SO FAR IN 08…
Been to school - nope!!!
Made a new friend- yeah
Fallen out of love - nope, i wasn't in love to start with
Done something you swore never to do - no
Laughed until you cried - often
Met someone who changed your life - not yet
Gotten close to someone - yes
Found out who your true friends were - to a degree
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF……
1. Bush? I don't really have much of an opinion, i don't know enough to decide
2. Gay Marriage? Go for it!
3. Who is the best hugger that you know? Patwick
4. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes
5. Is there something you want to tell someone? yes
6. What brand of shirt are you wearing? it's a Death Cab for Cutie one
7. Do you want to kiss anyone on your top friends on your favourite social networking site? yes
8. How many kids do you want to have? 2. how many do i want to give birth to? zero
9. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? In general
10. Do you wanna change your name? No i like it
11. What did you do for your last birthday? I had a big party
12. What time did you wake up today? 8ish, it was too hot to sleep
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? talking on msn
14. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: meet tallulah
15. Last time you saw your dad? yesterday
16. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? my lack of self confidence
17. Which hand do you like better? my right one is a lot more useful
18. What are you listening to right now? east 1999 - bone thug-n-harmony
19. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? Yes
20. Where is your virginity? who knows
21. Least favorite month? october
22. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? a jacket from robyn
23. Who’s getting on your nerves right now? No one really
24. Most visited webpage? IBS
25. Would you help your best friend fight if he/she is losing?definitely
26. What’s the worst day of your life? i dont even wanna think about it
27. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? no :(
28. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? when i get in a ranty mood, yes
exes everywhere
in the last 2 days i have seen 3 exes. one of them i avoided, the other one was with his new gf, and the third one i had a good long chat too. i text him every now and then, but it was good to actually see him properly. Jen's going away thing was fun, i was a bit of a random there considering the rest of them are going into their 2nd year at uni and im about to start my final year of school! It was fun dancing with emily and monique in our dresses. i love wearing dresses, its such nice weather at the moment that i didnt even start to get cold until like 9pm when we were sitting outside!
I made a beautiful heart on top of a latte today, i was so proud that i took a photo with my phone! if i could figure out how to get it onto the computer i would post it.
xx
I made a beautiful heart on top of a latte today, i was so proud that i took a photo with my phone! if i could figure out how to get it onto the computer i would post it.
xx
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Is it weird
that i feel my most relaxed when in a crowd? I was sitting on a bench today after going to get my eyelashes tinted and eyebrows waxed, on Vulcan Lane, and just listening to music and writing in my diary and i felt so calm. in all those cliche places like listening to the ocean i just feel tense, but seeing people and traffic and noise really really chills me out. I got all my stationery for school from an asian store on queen street where everything is 3 dollars, its right next to borders.
Still working on finishing prison break. It's such a good show. In fact i think i'll go watch more eps now. sorry for not having much to say, i kinda got it all out earlier today
RIP Heath Ledger
Still working on finishing prison break. It's such a good show. In fact i think i'll go watch more eps now. sorry for not having much to say, i kinda got it all out earlier today
RIP Heath Ledger
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